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[23 Sep 2004|01:48am] |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) __floorpunch
a lot of you i'd still like to keep in contact with haven't added my new journal yet.
sooo, if you'd like..please add it. if not, let me know and i'll remove you. i've already added 99% of you to that account.
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| sp happy that you love me. |
[07 Sep 2004|01:22am] |
I wish people weren't so stupid.
they know what the outcome of some situations will be, and even though it may cause serious problems, they do it anyway. what the fuck for, man?! YOU KNOW IT'S GOING TO CAUSE PROBLEMS, SO WHY DO IT?
why am I going to waste my time trying to help you out? you obviously don't care. if you did you wouldn't go out and cause even more problems for yourself. this isn't worth my time. if somebody can do this on a daily basis, they obviously don't care about themselves.
if something is happening and you can't handle it, deal with it on your own. you guys come to me on a daily basis about the same shit. i'm not forking out the advice anymore, because there are things you can do to prevent it from happening. if you hate it 'oh so much'..open your fucking mouth and say something.
it's as though people forget you've got your own shit to deal with.
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[06 Sep 2004|02:14am] |
I bought a new Tamagotchi today.
"Tamagotchi Connection." the only difference is that you have a Friends List that stores up to 50 people and you can connect with them if they're in close proximity. you can play games like MatchMaker, and if your Tamagotchi connects with the other one, you can form your own species. it's pretty strange. if it's born black..it's a boy. if it's born white..it's a girl. you even have to make a name for it. mine happened to be a boy, so his name is now Tyron. it's a bitch to keep the thing happy, but whatever. it keeps me occupied.
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| anything but simple. |
[04 Sep 2004|07:53am] |
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I was with Matt and Mario the WHOLE night.
we sat in my backyard and did bong hoots for a while. I swear, all I did was laugh the entire time. the both of them were just great company, as always.
at 4am Mario decided he had to go home, so Matt and I went inside and watched TV til about 6. it was really nice.
Allan leaves for Mexico on SEPTEMBER 11TH (dun nu nu) and i've been trying to get ahold of him to make plans before he leaves, but he hasn't got back to me. sucker. Allan, if you read this, call myself or Matt. don't be a loser. we want to see you.
bye.
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[02 Sep 2004|10:44pm] |
my mother is threatening to take the internet away. I have no idea why. i'm thinking she may be doing it because she feels if there is no computer or internet around, it'll give me more of a drive to do something with my life, but she's very wrong. i'm rarely on the computer to begin with. the only time i'm ever on this machine is when i'm trying to make plans with people..or when I get home from being out late at night and just want to relax before I go to bed. it's not as if my whole life revolves around being online.
it's pretty lame.
I should just go out and get pregnant. yeah, that's a good idea. she's always in a good mood with my sister. they rarely ever fight, so what's the deal? why am I always getting the shit flung in my direction?
sometimes I think I would be better off at my dads house. I would be farther away from my friends, who in the end always manage to keep me sane, but he wouldn't freak out on me over the smallest of things..and I wouldn't have to deal with my sister mistakes and the stress she puts my mom through. I think half the time my mother doesn't say anything to her is because she's afraid she'll take the babies away. so instead of freaking out on her and telling her how she actually feels, she just goes crazy on me.
ultimately, the only choice I have is to get a job and move the fuck out of here. shits obviously not getting better. for a while it seemed it would, but it never ever does.
she'll be sorry when i'm out on my own and doing something great with my life.
woocha.
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[02 Sep 2004|06:21am] |
there is too much going on around me right now.
I have to save up money for the Alexis show on the 16th, and I just found out Tegan and Sara are coming here on September 27th. I have to go to that show. no questions. I know Tash will come if she has the money, so that's awesome. I haven't been to a show with her in a long while. I think the last one we went to together was Poison the Well, and that was ages ago, so yeah.
I also need money to go to the ROM this weekend.
& I need to start preparing for this birthday of mine. everybody is telling me not to stress out about it, but I can't help it.
i'll be going to Ottawa in less than 3 months. I didn't think i'd be excited about it, but I really am. the only thing i'm kind of worried about is running low on cash, because I would like to spend some of my birthday money at the bar and doing things around here. I just don't want 90% of my money going towards this trip, because when I blow my money on just one thing, I tend to regret it afterwards. I don't know. i'm nervous.
rambling below the cut..yea.
( Read more... )
I have to be up fucking EARLY to help out around here. my Grandpa's surgery went okay, but he's not feeling good at all. i'm hoping it's just a natural thing and not something to worry about. we'll see.
night.xo.
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| SIN, SIN, SIN! |
[31 Aug 2004|12:35am] |
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it's been a good day so far.
I was still awake at 7am, so I decided to take a bath to relax and just chill out. it was sooo nice.
then I went on ebay and found the Mall Madness board game. holyy cow. I want that game. I remember playing it back in the day at slumber parties and shit.
 yeahh, that's hot.
now i'm going out with um..Matt..and hopefully Tash. I told her I would try to get to Meadowvale to meet her for coffee earlier, but I ended up having to do some cable bullshit with my sister and Grandpa. I was finished that around 11pm..and then I had to eat dinner, so basically i've had no time at all.
my Grandpa goes in for surgery tomorrow. i'm not sure exactly for what, but i'm hoping everything goes smoothly.
bye.
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[30 Aug 2004|02:38am] |
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everybody is pissing me off.
so many people I know are being really, really stupid and aren't thinking at all. i'm so tempted to just yell at them and completely lose it.
I wish I could surround myself with people who actually know what the fuck they're doing, rather than people who make 50 billion mistakes a day and don't realize it until it's too late. I always try to remind myself that they'll learn from their mistakes, but half of them don't! they just continue doing the same ol' shit.
I don't want to sit there and fake a smile while somebody is telling me some pointless story that brings me back to 9th grade. I want to be around people who act their age. I want to be able to go out and having meaningful conversations with friends, and go home feeling enlightened and like i've learned something new..something fresh.
I probably sound really harsh in saying all of that, but it's the truth.
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[29 Aug 2004|07:05am] |
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I went to Tasha's tonight to have one last party before Marcus heads off to Ottawa. it was originally supposed to be the four of us (Matt, Marcus, Tash and myself), but eventually about 10 people showed up. Tash wasn't too happy about that, but we tried to make the best out of a bad/awkward situation.
I noticed Matt was drinking a hell of a lot tonight, so to avoid the whole "puking and passing out" ordeal I asked him to pace himself and just relax. he never listened. he ended up getting really sick and just about passed out on Tash's driveway. hopefully he'll learn his lesson from this.
other than that..it was a good time.
this entry took me like..20-30 minutes to type out. my mind is really not functioning right now. forgive me.
it seems as though both Dean and Bobby have disappeared. the last time I talked to Dean was forever ago..and Bobby about a week. that's really stupid. you guys should like..come online and talk to me..or at least send me an e-mail to let me know you're okay and shit. be a pal.
oh maaann this sucks.
new aim sn : wow thats fancy
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[28 Aug 2004|09:00pm] |
Matt got our tickets for the Alexisonfire/Boysnightout show.
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i'm excited.
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| I HATE YOU!!!111*#@ |
[28 Aug 2004|09:47am] |
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this may sound really horrible, but my plans always get fucked up by either the babies or the fact that I never have money. of course, it's not the kids fault, but still. it's the most frustrating thing in the world. time and time again I get screwed because of that..and nobody seems to realize that my sister getting pregnant and having kids was not my decision, and I shouldn't be the one to deal with the outcome. I love them with all my heart and they brighten my day, but my freedom is important, too, and it's not like I ask to go out every single day. i'm nice enough to stay home during the day to help out, anyway.
I really wanted to go with Tash to get the pink streak in my hair for breast cancer, but as you can probably tell..that's not happening. I kind of knew it wouldn't, because my mom was bitching about money last night, but it wasn't certain..and I hoped she'd change her mind..but yeah..she didn't. both Matt and Tash offered to pay for it, but I seriously can't take their money. it wouldn't be right..for a number of reasons. whatever. some other time, I guess?
this bitter mood better go away..
edit: Tegan and Sara always cheer me up. heart.
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[28 Aug 2004|07:26am] |
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today a hair salon in my area is having a Breast Cancer day, and for $20 you can go in and get a pink streak or braid through your hair to benefit the foundation. I really want to go, and had every intention on going, but I don't know if I can now. my mother made an appointment for my sister to go in and get her hair all done, so she's asking me to stay here with her and help her watch the babies while she's gone. also..I don't really have $20..so I guess i'm out of luck. I feel really shitty about it and was looking forward to it, but whatever.
the past few days have been great.
night.xo.
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[27 Aug 2004|12:36am] |
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want, even if it's extremely personal. I DON'T CARE. It's part of the fun. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
yeah, I've never done that before, so shut it. please do it.
edit @ 7:15am
I had soooo much fun tonight.
I met up with Maja around..10:30ish(?) and we just chilled outside and talked til about midnight. i'm glad we did.
I then came in and expected to stay home the rest of the night, but Allan asked if we wanted to go to the skatepark..and Tash was awake at this point, so I couldn't pass it up. I normally wouldn't go with just the boys, because i'd end up sitting by myself, but yeah..Tash came with and so did HILLARY! the guys skated around for the night and we just sat, watched, talked and took pictures of them..so expect those in an upcoming update.
the cops showed up while we were there, but thankfully they were REALLY nice. the park closes at 11pm..so we technically shouldn't have been there, but they didn't care at all. they just asked us if we had been "smoking the ganja" or drinking alcohol. we weren't, they believed us, so they went on their way..but not before asking Matt to do a "trick" on his board. good times.
we left around..5/5:30am(?). Hillary and Tash went home, Allan went home, and Matt had asked me if I wanted to have a smoke before we called it a night, so I agreed. we ended up staying outside til now..10 billion cigarettes later.
all in all it was a fantastic night and i'm glad I went out.
night.xo.
(don't forget to ask the questions!)
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[26 Aug 2004|09:03pm] |
I don't know what's going on with my e-mail, but no messages are going through. so yeah, don't bitch if I don't reply to anything you may have sent..cause I didn't get it. okay nvm. it's working now.
i'm pretty fucking tired..
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| I want another dog. |
[25 Aug 2004|09:39pm] |
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my memory sucks.
I hung out with Matt, Tash and Mario last night. we've all been having a good time, I think, so I guess the summer wasn't/isn't that much of a waste. we all wanted to do something this year, something that was totally different than what we normally do, but it never happened. theres always next year, right? haa, yeahh..
I refuse to let my 19th birthday be a waste, though. I don't care if I have to pay for everybody to make it wherever to celebrate, i'll do it. i'll blow all my birthday money just to have my friends there.
i'm so sick of Mississauga. it's BORING.
so anyway, at around 5am I realized I was wide awake and had nothing to do, and just then Matt messages me. he had gone to bed a few hours prior, so I had no idea why he wasn't in bed yet. yeah, he said he couldn't sleep and he was awake as well, so we met up. we were outside til about..8 in the morning. we caught my mom before she went to work, and she bought us all coffee. Matt ended up spilling his all over the sidewalk, though, and all over the ass of his pants. funny. he went home shortly afterward because he had a job interview to go to. hopefully that went over well.
byee.
oh and I forgot to mention that a lady was held hostage today in Toronto..infront of Union Station (The Bus/Train Terminal). supposedly the suspect shot another woman in the head prior to taking this other one hostage. that's crazy shit.
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[25 Aug 2004|05:01am] |
ring, ring, ring, ring, ring, ring, ring, ring..
banana phone..
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[24 Aug 2004|03:48am] |
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I have the greatest friends in the world.
first, I meet up with Tash and she has a coffee for me.
then..I go home, realize i'm hungry, and Matt brings me over a lettuce and tomato sandwich.
aww.
tonight was really a lot of fun. spent some time with Matt, Tash, Mario and Hillary. it was good.
Matt and I are getting our Alexisonfire tickets soon. yay. that'll be great. second time seeing them. super excited.
& um..supposedly The Used are going on tour with Atreyu? that's just wow. they don't have any Canadian dates announced yet, so i'm not sure if they'll be opening when they stop here, but oh well. seeing just The Used is enough to make me a happy, happy girl.
so I did a little survey thing..
( Read more... )
night.xo.
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| celebrate, jesus, celebrate.. |
[23 Aug 2004|12:10am] |
god damnit you people need to stop talking in code.
it's the most annoying thing ever. well, not the most..but it's pretty shitty! stop, stop, stop.
I went to my dads yesterday. despite feeling like crap, it was ok. some people a few houses down were throwing a religious type party, so my family being the weirdos they are decided to sing along and 'rejoice' with them. I think that was the only time during the whole day that I laughed and actually enjoyed myself.
tonight I didn't do anything. my stomach has stopped bothering me, but now my head hurts. figures. it's always one thing after the other with me. oh well. if I manage to get rid of this..I think i'll go over to Tasha's place and join everybody over there. the chances of that happening are slim, though, so I might as well just rest. we'll see.
night.xo.
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| why don't you change your mind and come with us? |
[21 Aug 2004|07:18am] |
I think i've finally come to terms with who my real friends are and who aren't. it's kind of bothersome..although i'm glad I realize it. I no longer have to waste my time caring for those who couldn't care less about me.
my sister told me that she bumped into Willson the other day. supposedly he asked her how I was doing. now that's just weird, because he went his way, I went mine. I wouldn't choose to let a friendship like that go to waste, but he did, and he shouldn't act as though he gives a shit about what happens in my life or how i'm doing. it's fucked up.
thanks for absolutely nothing, sweetie. <3
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[21 Aug 2004|12:45am] |
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hmm, nothing is really new.
yesterday was the last party we'll be having for a while, and with my luck I got really sick. from the moment I showed up my stomach was ultra wonky. I tried the best I could to last the night..and I did. I decided to go home once everybody passed out/puked their guts out. I was expecting some crazy shit to go down, but unfortunately that never happened. everybody started drinking around 8pm, and by the time 11pm rolled around everybody was either completely wasted and on the verge of passing out, passed out or at the side of the house throwing up.
Matt took the cab with me back to my house and we talked for a few. he skated back to his place to join the others & I went inside to rest. I was supposed to go to his place tonight to watch Jurassic Park and chill, but i'm still not feeling good, so we had to reschedule. we still met up for a bit, though. he bought me a pack of smokes, a coffee, and a Bingo card. <3
tomorrow I have to mission to Hamilton to visit my family for my sisters birthday. I hate, hate, hate being surrounded by little kids. I used to be okay with it, but the majority of my days now are spent watching babies, so it's not as exciting and cute anymore.
only a few more months until my 19th b-day. can't.wait.
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